m lost FOUR words. OK Computer

Hey U,

i dont know, but i have been thinking TWO much nowadays.

Watching,waiting,anticipating......

But what?

the hardest thing in this world is waiting for someone who aint never coming & waking up N unsleeping person.

That is D 2Much......

2+2=5, i hope that you choke...

lyrically and musically, not yours

Me

Silence is pretty Violence

words fuel me!!!!!!

jes a hello,

even if it's dull as shredding a cello!

jes a how is you,

even if it's nothing new!

jes a call on the phone,

even after it, m still alone!

jes a line,

even if nothing is fine!

jes three ha-ha-has,

even if that is one of those sha-la-la las!

silence kills me!!!!!

customised 4 being in2 me

Sometimes I've been to cryin' for unborn children
That might have made me complete
But I, I took the sweet life and never knew I'd be bitter from the sweet
I spent my life exploring the subtle wandering that cost too much to be free
Hey my beautiful friend, I've been to paradise, but it was just a disguise
and i have been to hell,but i have never been to heaven
i have been to others,but I've never been to me
coz without you i aint complete, i dont exist even.

quest for questions

as friends rust,m corroded to fragments.

left alone with empty statements

but i dont know if i can ever find my voice

and as well i got no choice.........

m helpless as an alienated alien in a passover planet.

could i, can i ever forget......

my own lost and post home world ?????????????????

but i cant even remember the galaxy of my old.

it is an expanding universe enlarging nowhere in infinite spaces

and they say spaces too are places................

but where and when do i ever fit in

when all inside me is hollow within?

i got lotsa questions,

but solutions, frigging solutions........

are they really there at all?

is there an end to my fall?

i dont know, i dont know,

it doesnt show, it doesnt show...........

well how i can see the light in all the darkness....

how can i ever see in my blindness..........

am i going back to the past

or am i moving ahead fast.....

m wheeling around in circles,

waiting for a miracle.......

but aint they surprises too?

and alarms makes me blue....

so m forfeiting the miracle,

just give me an answer, chemical and simple!

i will be alright,satisfied.....

when my brains are fried.

The More Loving One

Looking up at the stars, I know quite well That, for all they care, I can go to hell, But on earth indifference is the least We have to dread from man or beast. How should we like it were stars to burn With a passion for us we could not return? If equal affection cannot be, Let the more loving one be me. Admirer as I think I am Of stars that do not give a damn, I cannot, now I see them, say I missed one terribly all day. Were all stars to disappear or die, I should learn to look at an empty sky And feel its total dark sublime, Though this might take me a little time.

something borrowed,something blue

i dunno,m improverished,m feeling cheap,m declaring bankruptcy,m borrowing words*** Thanx a lot to Bjork for this one ***
Misty
Look at me... I'm as helpless as a kitten up a treeAnd I feel i'm clinging to a cloudI can't understand, I get misty just holding your handWalk my way...And a thousand violins begin to playIt could be the sound of your helloThat music I hear, I get misty the moment you're nearCan't you see that you're leading me onAnd it's just what I want you to doDon't you notice how hopelessly I'm lostThats why im following youHoh-wohow!On my own...When I wander through this wonderland aloneNever knowing my right foot from my leftMy hand from my gloveI'm too misty and too much in loveYeah, wooh!Can't you see that you're leading me onAnd it's just, just what I want you to do, oh!Don't you notice how hopelessly I'm lostThat's why I'm following youhuh, yeahoh!On my own...When I wander through this wonderland aloneNever knowing my left foot from my rightMy hand from my gloveI'm too misty, I'm too much in loveWooh!I'm too misty!Too, I'm too much in love, hoh-hoh-hoh hoh-hoh!

Novocaine4 d soul

Here i go again,it is getting redundant this lyf of mine,i went to a whore and she said my life is a bore,now it's 5 am in the morn and i aint sleeping yet.i cant,my life is a song.it is a cliche, a movie script,a stupid love story.the lover who cannot sleep but weep and weep, a weezer and we are all on drugs,&yeah the drugs dont work,RichardAshcroft was right.he is a verve anyway and i am a blur,tender is my heart,screwing up my life,tender is the ghost,the ghost i love the most,hiding from the sun,waiting for the night to come...like Annie singing that love song for that vampire,i dont remember who was it,but i know Winona,she`s as pretty as she could be but i dont understand her, she is as mysterious as Arthur C Clarkes'world,one of the killers riding on the back of a hurricane #1. we are starcrossed yet it is a phoenix rising from its frigging ash,burn baby burn,that's what she says. a devine comedy,but she shock me to the core,and we are lyk crystal,i break easy...i am the new order,my heart is crashed by a former love,aint that true?it aint nothing brit,but an all american reject.well whatever these is the united states of whatever, and two nation divided by one common language,someone wise did say so,not that i care,fred flinstone said yabba dabba do!but that aint aint my point,and the wise man told me i dont hear your voice,he said" stop whispering ,start shouting!coz m a creep and a radiohead,my head is always talking ,i am guided by voices,talking heads,and she is burning down the house,the house that jack built,but who the hell is jack?i dont know,the answer is 42,but what is the question,ask marvin,that paranoid android,when jack names the planets and talked to me,coz now i am older and wiser,i am one of the strokes who brought the child,that wanna run wild,duran duran,do run and run,i dont know where???rainy thrusday on the avenue, sidewalk or pavement.

whatever!

I hate the things i can do!
i can be an obedient child
but i wanna run wild!
i could be the best lover
all my exes-axes-excess tell me so
i don't know,when did i ever did know!
i seem i used to be somewhat like
that what they said,
but it brought&bought me down ever so low
coz it`s always so goddamn bad when it all gets over!
if living in chaos is my source of sustenance,
what will i choose between
a peaceful life and beautiful strife?
can you tell me what i should do?
not that i care what you say......

m strong enuff

4 Yoshimi,
i aint apologising or asking for forgivness; i am jes sorry, in my life, i have been humane afterall and i have erred.
i might have said things incorrect in terms of politeness.
i might have said words in anger which i will regret forever,
becoz it was the truth and was right
but it was so wrong of me to feel so about you.
i never should have unbelieved your lies.
i never should bear grudges against you,
for shattering my dreams.
becoz that probably means that i was wrong and
if i love you the way i truly do so
i never should have felt the pain
when you hurt me so.
i should always be happy for you,
but in my moments of weakness,
i couldnt hold on and stood strong,
i commited a lot of blunders;
but i swear and i still try to undo all those mistakes
so that i could have your love forever
whether you are still giving it or not!
anyway whatever, i dont care!
i will always recieve it and take it from you,
you dont own it!
it aint yours only
it`s all free and available there always up above!
morever now i will never try to know for damn sure,and
verify it from you,if it's true, that love of ours.
i dont think i wanna reach you now anymore,
i am bitten and shy,and though i am sad without you,
i am gonna be happy in my assumptions, i am!.
==========siu-kyam-pha.

an honest mistake

what's distance when you are so far?
i like the way things are
at before, not for better&after!
we are better off in dreams
your voice is clear& i hear well when i dont listen to your screams.
you are so near,when you are a touring star.
jes let me catch you on the radio
like that stupid song i heard ages ago.
what's past is what's gonna last
we are slowly moving fast.
goodbye my lil future,yesterday is oh so new.
now 'aint never gonna reach you
somehow, 'aint never gonna seek your touch
however that, i long for you, much!
godspeed the width of this crack
all hail the promises we break.
it's uncertain, it's unpredictable
all the tommorow you can see,all that's your plans
and i am so ungrown, so unstable
so what if i am head of the clan!
i am forfeiting all of my claims
lay it all on me,all the blame.
lay it thick,i can stand the pain
i am standing in pouring rain,
jes a cliche,without cover
waiting for it all to be over.
C ya in unreality,
my laboured futility!

Prisoner of d Past

Now, you may well ask, since this lady fish wasn’t the ghost of a thief, but a host who stole my heart, why did she strike so quick on gold when nothing else would attract her, after all those years? That was the lesson i realized I learned that day, the day i first saw her on my school ride. She was 10, i was 15, Now we are double,& This story is -- and has always been -- about her more than anyone. Sometimes, the only way to catch an uncatchable woman is to offer her my Bittersweet Chocolate Love, Harsh and dirty outside in anger when love and hate collides, but always true and sweet later, inside, coz this love always wins,champion of truth, whatever strife we are going through, she knows us is4 life.

can i push d barman2 open old wounds

i know m coming too strong, i know i aint in the position to say al lthese to you, after all who am i, just a stranger you met on the way asking for much just coz he wants it..aint that a laugh? But this stupid jerk here's out for you coz i got a chance,a slight one, the odds are many 99 to 1, and m gonna land flat on my face if it fails.but m not trying, m doing it.....want you that much in my life...so precious, u are a treasure, a chestof the finest jewels, you are beautiful in all ways, romantically with a capital R too.A Joy Forever, a Grecian Urn, the West Wind, aNightingale, Byzantium and everything.Leave it to Yeats,Keats andShelley to say all this and mine to acquire..you know i never had major ambitions in mylife that way.i never ever dreamt of a future, leave alone marriage..but you made me change so.m feeling awkward and not so
comfortable with it at all, but m saying it loud.....i want that, iwant you for life.M staying back and winning in your world, just fo ryou and only for my selfish reasons.I can picture all the joy andpleasures with you even in this disgusting planet u got here.nobodymess with me so, they are all vermins, scum of the Earth. I amGodzilla and they are Japan.But, m holding on , m standing with you.

miles and smiles

lookin outside the window,
opening wide to a world of joy and sorrow,
the wind sweeps in harsh and cold
and i need a hand to hold,
i have never ever felt so lonely.
gone are the days,
still my love`s so far away.
the bleak is all i can see,
so i seek solace in my dreams.
there i walk with you
down by the brooks and streams
underneath painted skies ever so blue.
reality won`t rain on me
while i worship you in silent ceremony.
i curse the morning hour
when it should tear away the fragrant flower
i hold deep into the night
long before the waking light;
where sorrow starts and joy ends
for you are all that`s, my beautiful friend.

whatever happened to me

when she sits all alone, so far away
from where my eyes just can`t see
maybe feelin lonely
or just wondering about the day
but if it happens she`s thinking of me
hope it`s the same,
the same smile that creep upon my face
whenever i call her name
or empty asit may sound
the beatings of my heart
needs no pick-ups for the frets
to amplify the distortion,
the feedbacksand all the noise
whenever i hear her voice.
Star of my guitar,
I'm a short end fuse
life without my muse!
She stays behind those clouds,
so i pray the sattelites
hear my voice clear and loud
rushing like waves on silvertide.
Lord,give me a phonewhen she feels lone,
(perhaps a ringtone) and a song,
she can always sing along.
Maybe then she`ll be happy
though sad my eyes just can't see.

p.s. i ain`t no poetical prick ,but i just love doing that