whatever!

I hate the things i can do!
i can be an obedient child
but i wanna run wild!
i could be the best lover
all my exes-axes-excess tell me so
i don't know,when did i ever did know!
i seem i used to be somewhat like
that what they said,
but it brought&bought me down ever so low
coz it`s always so goddamn bad when it all gets over!
if living in chaos is my source of sustenance,
what will i choose between
a peaceful life and beautiful strife?
can you tell me what i should do?
not that i care what you say......